Duly Noted: "If only..."

I generally don't tend to make New Year's resolutions, as I don't see the point in setting myself up for the pending failure that 46% of Americans fall to after only for weeks into the year. I do, however, tend to ask the Lord to help me with something in our relationship. Last year it was to hear the Voice more clearly, this year I wanted help with trust; trusting that the Lord knew what the Lord was doing and simply has my back. It's the second day of the year and if this morning was any indication... I'm gonna get what I've asked for.

This morning I was thoroughly pissed off. (Can I say that on TV? I'll call Standards...) I stood outside in 25 degree weather for 35 minutes, for a bus that never ended up coming. When another bus finally arrived, I was certain that the wonderful Mother MARTA system had screwed me without a kiss, yet again.

My trip is supposed to take an hour and 45 mins, there was no possible way I was making it to work in time to not have my @$$ handed to me on a platter -- and not even a silver platter but, like a plastic one, ya know, because we're in a recession.

I get on the second bus, which is also five minutes behind and begin my daunting ride to what was certain doom. I began calling cab companies to see which would rob me the least. None would arrange a cab for a place I was on my way to, via public transportation, and when I thought I'd figured out a way around that, yet another brick wall. All the while I'm riding the bus to a train station. Little did I know, the bus that'd picked me up late would arrive to the station a few minutes early. That set off a chain of events that all worked out in my favor.

To abridge a longer story, I hadn't realized that I was already on an alternate route that was taking me where I needed to be. To top it off, after being picked up 35 minutes late I actually got to work seven minutes BEFORE I had originally planned for.

When I realized that everything was going to work out well, back when we got to the train station ahead of schedule, it dawned on me that I had been so worried about how I could make it work that I'd missed the fact that it already was.

When I got onto the train I heard the Lord saying, "if only you'll trust me."

Hmm. Duly noted.