Feeling some kind of way...

((I'm almost certain I shouldn't be sharing any of this, but in this moment - I dont so much mind.))

I'm I don't know what I'm writing about, or for, but I just feel something coming out of me.

"I just tweeted: 'I feel myself disconnecting from a lot - not sure what all of them are by name, but I feel them all, even in their non-specfic nature.' I don't know what's up with me in the last week or so." - A text message I just sent to some of my close friends.

I just called my pastor a few minutes ago, asking him for volunteering opportunities in the next couple of days.

I'm listening to Maxwell BLACKsummers'night.

On my way to go talk to an ex about why I'm so over trying to re-date/attempting to be friends (whatever this is... or isn't). It's too exhausting to navigate the thoughts, feelings and intentions of others, at least right now. At least.

Last night a long planned date with a new guy that I'd been seeing, and actually like(d?) was cancelled, seemingly because of a break-down in communication.

I broke up with my boyfriend a couple of months ago, because of his lack of communication skills.

I'm starting to hate my job - more so how I feel when I'm there, sometimes. Like he's out to get me, seemingly because he is, and just waiting to be got, or to give in and be had.

I'm tired. So tired.

I'm just so over it all. All of it. I'm feeling like... like... like I'm being renewed - or something like that. Almost like te contractions of pending birth. Maybe. I dunno.

I have a slight headache, maybe a doctor would describe this whole thing as something like an aura before something is about to happen. Yes, that's what this feels like. Like an aura, before something big happens. Something big. Happening. To happen. Happened?

I don't know, but as some friends would say, "I'm feeelin some kinda way about..." all of it. Some. Kinda way.

shelby.on.style - Instant Gratification

Instant Gratification

Here are some fun things from some of my favorite online shopping sites.

Everything is under $50!

AirBrushed TShirt from Sex and the City stylist Patricia Field

Striped Skirt from TopShop

Lace Leggings from Karma Loop

Ankle Boots from Go Jane

Duly Noted: I Choose on Monday But today I decided to let it all go. I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.

Last time we talked about the “Funky Fridge” days and how they can stink up your life. Now, have you ever been in a funky day and someone came up to say something to you, and you turned them away shut them down, or otherwise abruptly stopped what they were about to say or do - all because you weren’t in the mood?

The same way the leftovers sit in the fridge and funk up the back corners of our big ticket appliance, the upset spirit or feeling takes up space. When you take out the big old dish of whatever was smelling so bad, you’ve made space to welcome in something new, fresh, and and consumable.

Hmm.

That just struck me. You make space to welcome in something new, fresh and actually useable.

How many things are cluttering up out lives, our life’s space, our spirits? How many things are we missing out on because we aren’t able to open up to them and their possibilities? How many blessings do we miss because we’re stuck on an old transgression, trespass, or tribulation?

Let it go. Release your “clinched fist and extend [your] open hand” to what beautiful things await the open door to come in.

That’s all. Really, this one was short. Have a great week. Now smile and get off the internet.

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Adam Lambert

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Duly Noted: I Choose on Monday Gotta get this off my chest, gotta let it go today.

Have you ever had a really rough period of days, and then even when the situation was over, found yourself still residually upset, annoyed, or otherwise in a funk? Right, me neither.

Those are the days I’m going to call the “Funky Fridge” days. They are, so to speak, the kind of days that have left-over items that have stayed for much longer than ever intended. ((Realizing: There’s something in some tupperware in the back of my fridge, let’s just say it was a good, then. Yikes.))

I live with two roommates, whom I love dearly. Both of them, and myself as well, have been guilty of sitting something in the refrigerator, and over a little bit of time, it has gotten pushed back, moved over, scooted a little further back, and found its way settled into a corner.

Then the you walk in your house and the game starts, I call it “What the hell is that smell?” You know the game, don’t act like I’m the only one who knows the “What the hell is that smell game!” It’s that moment when the item decides you’ve ignored it long enough, and its voice, or pungent aroma, wants to be heard, or offensive. You open the fridge door and your nose instinctively turns up, your head tilts to the side, your eyes roll back, and the back of your head hits the floor. When you wake up, you realize it’s time to sniff out your overdue prize. Beware: This is one of those games where winning really feels like losing.

You already know where I’m going. What the funk is in your fridge? [OK, so I really just wanted to use ‘funk’ almost inappropriately.] But seriously, what have you held on to that you probably should have thrown out, let go of, or otherwise set free from the chilly inside place you’ve kept it? Has it started to smell yet, or is it just a few days from stinking up your days?

Oh it won’t stink? Have you ever walked into the room and someone’s mood was almost palpable, tangible, or even worse funky? The moment you entered their space your nose scrunched up, eyebrows raised, and your head gave a short turn and you asked, “Whassup with...?” Someone’s having a “Funky Fridge” day.

Just make sure it’s not you.

All you gotta do is throw away the leftovers. Now, off to my refrigerator. I’ll probably throw the container out, just to avoid having to open it. Ugh.

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::Cameron Ducker resides in Atlanta, Ga and is the founder of popular music and entertainment blogMusikChild.Blogspot.com, and is the Music & Entertainment Editor at JarrettHill.com

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