Feeling some kind of way...

((I'm almost certain I shouldn't be sharing any of this, but in this moment - I dont so much mind.))

I'm I don't know what I'm writing about, or for, but I just feel something coming out of me.

"I just tweeted: 'I feel myself disconnecting from a lot - not sure what all of them are by name, but I feel them all, even in their non-specfic nature.' I don't know what's up with me in the last week or so." - A text message I just sent to some of my close friends.

I just called my pastor a few minutes ago, asking him for volunteering opportunities in the next couple of days.

I'm listening to Maxwell BLACKsummers'night.

On my way to go talk to an ex about why I'm so over trying to re-date/attempting to be friends (whatever this is... or isn't). It's too exhausting to navigate the thoughts, feelings and intentions of others, at least right now. At least.

Last night a long planned date with a new guy that I'd been seeing, and actually like(d?) was cancelled, seemingly because of a break-down in communication.

I broke up with my boyfriend a couple of months ago, because of his lack of communication skills.

I'm starting to hate my job - more so how I feel when I'm there, sometimes. Like he's out to get me, seemingly because he is, and just waiting to be got, or to give in and be had.

I'm tired. So tired.

I'm just so over it all. All of it. I'm feeling like... like... like I'm being renewed - or something like that. Almost like te contractions of pending birth. Maybe. I dunno.

I have a slight headache, maybe a doctor would describe this whole thing as something like an aura before something is about to happen. Yes, that's what this feels like. Like an aura, before something big happens. Something big. Happening. To happen. Happened?

I don't know, but as some friends would say, "I'm feeelin some kinda way about..." all of it. Some. Kinda way.